deep dash muziq. cos i dislike hyphens (episode 2)

"who needs love? i dont wanna get married" hasif said

"dude, you're starting to sound like deep muziq."

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in my p.o.v.

when an individual is subjected to prolonged solo time and solo thoughts, his/her heart hardens and sees love in a negative light. theres no longer room for love. its become obsolete. thus, he/she becomes a single player.

i know the feeling of being helplessly dependent on love.
and man i hate that.
i moved away from that.
the last time i was officially not single?
2004.
the year deep muziq came about.

after that, love became a no no.
it became something that i took advantage of.
flings with girls (and guys) became commonplace
til halfway my sexdrive wasnt there no more.

satisfying others became boring to me.



but maybe after reading too many mushy gushy carebear coated books and blogpost, it made me consider for a while.
nah, stil unconvinced.

maybe one day.
maybe one day.

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truth is

walking downtown today from like 4pm til 11pm,
it made me realise,
all i want, like any other being,
is someone whom i can talk to.
and after that hug to feel better after letting go of all the thoughts and emotions.

like many, my thoughts are getting heavier to handle.
and no, suicide is not an option.


deep muziq.