his million complaints

went to yasmin's blog. so i clicked the link she provided. the moment i was there, i read my star sign and i closed the browser. it says... i aint compatible with Virgo and Scorpio and am compatible with Leo and my kind. hmm. Bull and Lion reminds me of Boolean in 3D modelling class. chey.

i finally solved the case of them mystery loaves. lack of communication got them into this situation. my mommeh was returnin home from work. she felt the need to buy bread. so she bought 2. my dad was jogging and was gonna get ready to go to work. he felt the need to buy bread. so he bought 1. i puked again. kinda like a habit. but its not voluntary. im kinda bored of eatin and digesting. so i puked. and my body's kinda too used to that regime that when i drank water this morning, i puked it all out. and the pukey water tasted alot like hydrochloric acid. yay me. and, i cant gym today. cos i have to pretend that i am going for Friday prayers. dang it. naughty naughty

d muziq said: and RP sent me a letter they said i got outstandin fees so i checked the link they said... Outstanding Amount: 0 like sugar mufujifi said: 20th - 27th was the application... and. *Those who do not register online by 27 Feb 08 will not be allowed to attend the graduation ceremony. ahahaha deep muziq said: AWW MAN like wasted mufujifi said: ahaha oh it's ok! we'll visit them afterwards // that sounded sad. missin the whole event but seein them later after the show. and i was like sad that i didnt register for the grad ceremony. 2hours after the closing date. but then today, i read the mails and discovered that they extended the registration dates (guess there werent many who registered) but now im lazy see la, taking things for granted. bleah

28 Feb 2008 Today I graduated from School Of Engineering. yeah roite, i was just there to mingle and eat. with the emp crew that is. the joyous faces of glum expressionists who cares about sugar level. all you can eat Hershey's Kisses bleah look at my plate. i only hate 3 of them random things on it. the rest were either distributed to the needy or left to rot. and then i came home to see so many bread. first it was frozz. now this? ******* to that one oh yea, by the way, i dont like you. stop messaging me. yuck. to the other one oh yea, its you that makes me happy *******

i like talking at night. msn that is. i do that with many ppl its fun. ppl u duno usually tries to end it asap friends are an exception i had a long one with ong before, like 3am in the morning. hmmm, i usually have a briefly long ones with jan... cos she replies slow and mufujifi as well. yay. and im tired already. factoy! adam, u need sleep. and please. its adam, dont just call me dam (dumb). lame mother.

JC still reigns supreme. downloading his stuff now.

i realised i've never told anyone. well except for mufujifi... here goes. Im afraid of bananas yes. thats one of my fears

we do go gym. this is proof. hasif lost 6kg yay. and he's wondering where it went to. likewise, i was wondering where my other 7kg went when i didnt even exercised... the pre-episode of the podcast. seduction my food upside down in my belly //now GangStarz. USD$100,000, recording contract and sponsorships on the line. we'll take a step at a time. like the auditions first. who knows //now Work I dont wanna work for my gay boss. He's been calling the whole day. Arrgh. And he's been leaving me Voice Msgs. But i got one of his client's DVD in my bag. Im just tryna figure out how to put that DVD on his doorstep without being seen. ARRGGHH Back to more lazy job hunting.

work im the kind of person who has commitment problems. i cant commit when it comes to projects or work. i'll get bored and i'll let go. i dunno whether i wanna work for my gay boss girls i cant commit. i dont like being in the ship. thats why i have never been in a proper relationship for 3 years. i just like company and listening ears. yes. thats me. bus but i can commit my time for 2h30min bus rides though. no doubt

reading through my old archive. dang. at random, i clicked June 2006. i read the 2nd entry. tsk tsk. that habit started early. see i told you i only needed company. see i told you we were never together. tsk tsk. see i told you that i wont be too attached http://deep-muziq.blogspot.com/2006_06_01_archive.html

what would your story be? what would you tell your kids? i think that show's gotten into me but love? nah.....i learnt a few good things. never ever say this to your partner i swear i wont say them no more... we'll split after graduation we're not together i don't like your family i wish your (name of relative) would die you are? i met better im gay im bi you are the worst person i've known i fell for someone for 2years but never told anyone.

chiku rd, woodlands, ubi, bugis, little india the day started at 6am. the day shall end at 3am i went to meet Moe. My boss. he really is a nice guy. soft but nice. this is his office. its at Chiku Rd. humble cosy non-singapore themed place. at ubi. we were at Crocodile's showroom. I was eyeing the $489 suit. dang after that went to Yamaha. we need a bike to travel. then off to Tamiya showroom. toys will be toys. i want that one. $700 total. Radio controlled 18wheelers. we were hungry. we ate thosai. the rest are sick of it. i better help find a new makan place or i have to find new friends that wanna eat thosai. sheesh. the chendol is whacked. pure coconut milk. im tired of watchin my sugar level. may it reach high extreme and lemme die. finally found the SIA plane model. aint cheap no. $69 and this sweater kinda reminds me of mufujifi. wonder where she is now. hmmmmm.....lalalala......weeeeeee the usual lazy corner. and the exhausted participant. "who needs girls

aspartime can be consumed by diabetics. forget bout sugar. coke zero got too much of aspartime "you're a sweet guy" says dhana cos i always got Frozz in my pocket and Hudsons in my bag. different days different flavour. i've got Orange Mint and Blueberry Mint Frozz. and Lime Hudsons. _________________________________________ bear in mind that im very particular when it comes to breath. got bad breath? ask me for sweets, i only take the Frozz(sugar free). the hudsons are for people who hate sugar free stuff but love free stuff.

kinda wrong but i need to get attracted to girls again "now you don't sound bi anymore, now you sound gay" says dhana i wasnt turned on by a minah. i dont see whats so great about nicole. they like avril lavigne, jennifer love hewitt i like jc chasez "you're in the wrong frequency man" says sharime today, the handsome waiter didnt serve us thosai... "so?" says sharime the whole point for me blogging this? ____________________________________ i just watched gay porn and it felt all right. haha, i need to fall for a girl. or at least pretend to do so. then i can fit in again. ignore me.

i hate blogging. its so farqueing boring. for people with no life. raise up your hands if you're one of them. good boy adam.

yesterday for the first time. i stood in front of the freezer. contemplating, should i buy the Light Coca-Cola or Coca-Cola Zero. that was fun!

"We also want to shed some light on the Gang Starz, a competition to search for the best vocal group in Asia. You'll be competing against Malaysia, Indonesia, Thailand, Philipines. The Grand Prize is USD100,000 so don't miss a great oppurtunity to be the best vocal group in Asia!" Mike got us into this thing. If we're one of them 5 selected from Singapore, apparently, we be on TV3. Hmmmmmm...................

"Dear Adam Mohammad, I'm someone I doubt you know. Im one of your junior in secondary school back then. I used to love it when you and your gang performed. It feels like having real star in school. And when you guys actually graduated, seriously, you guys were missed. And all i could do is reading blogs to keep myself updated. I've been a constant reader of your blog anyway. And i think you rocks. you have this unique character that nobody has it so far. Remember, you're special in your ways. You know how surprised I was reading this post. I couldn't even imagine how harsh your life used to be. I felt the pain. And that's why I'm here. I know it's hard but never give up on life Adam. Seriously, if people and/or your parents sees you as a rock,i see you as a diamond. If you can endure for 18 years, i'm sure you can now. Life is always be life. Challenges after challenges. Obstacles after obstacle. Take a deep breath and create a smile..Remember, if t

lost. minutes after posting my previous entry, i went to view Natz's 4th blog. i wasnt ready to cry. but heck, i read it too intensely that i cried in the library. plugged in to my earphones, i was listening to the wrong song. JC's "Dear Goodbye" Natz is strong. She really is. she conceals the scars brilliantly. i respect that. writing your life experience on a blog is always painful. it takes guts to put it there. to expose our tears. Natz, you're strong. for a then 12 year old to experience that is.....ouch but that wasnt the first time i cried to her blogpost 2005, her "Bapak" that was sad as well. and apparently, i was listening to Dear Goodbye as well. "natz, lets cry once in a while. but lets smile all the time."

i love this guy since 1999. a four-octave vocalist. how i envy you. i am like a shaky 3 octave and a quarter. back then in choir and acappella, i wanted to reach his range. lovely. yes, i fantasized bout him before. whoop pee doop.

"shoppin' for clothes is gay," says me "uh huh! your words are contradicting, you're not bi" says dhana "i use the term gay loosely. and i am bi, not gay" says me there are places where i used to shop for clothes. try me. Ubi Ave 3's warehouse, Giant, FOS. so yeah, i do shop. back then that is. i dont see the need to invest on clothes now. lets wear sweaters and jackets everyday. you will be remembered. one day, you'll be telling your kids "I had a friend who wore the same thing everyday" yay! if i had kids, i'll throw them against the wall. or toss them down the flat

that word irks me "so forget your past and we can dream tomorrow" hmm, my boss moe dont believe in love. im kinda influenced by that. but there was one part where i kinda disagree. "you jump i jump?....would you? I wouldnt, you wanna jump? jump la" we were listening to that Titanic theme song at that point of time still pondering. came to a decision. i would jump. and i would jump before the girl.

sai loves his Ferrari. he enjoys putting neons underneath it. dhana enjoys sampling old muziq. i enjoy taking pics of the going-ons. apparently, im losing track of days. i didnt realise it was a sunday when i was in school. prior to school, i was at some random event. donned the usual saggy jeans, my tie, white shirt and isabelle. isabelle is my suit apparently. the point is, yay! i can fit. haha then there was Chingay @North at WDL. crowded it was. dang. that was the only time i got uncontrollably vulgar. meet Joe. Joe the cheeseburger. I pimped my burger with loads of mayonnaise and pepper. i couldnt eat it together, the meat and the cheese kept slippin' out. so yeah, licked the mayo first. ooh, sinful indulgence. and i topped it off with apple pie and coke light. nice proper meal finally. you know its gettin more fair. Those nonchalants who care less bout sugar get to enjoy Coke, Lime Coke, Vanilla Coke.. finally, now i've got choices, Light Coca-Cola and Coca-Cola Zero.

in my head. all happy thoughts. got my life figured out and back on the road. in my happy world, adam is happy. i can see mufujifi, dhana, natz, ong. haha. what a nice dream it was. that was a nice nap

found this in a recent msn history with mufujifi "but i've always thought messed up kids are interesting" agreed. if you want your kid to be like me, mess with him or it for 18 years!

adam seriously need to reconsider. adam needs company. i cant be at home no more. its not safe for me. really. wanna trade?

or maybe not. but dying on a birthday would be nice

adam// was never a happy child. didnt grow up easy. while making the most of his time outside, he fears going home. tried to kill ownself more than 12 times. the urge is back. adam is extremely sensitive and explodes easily. adam turned to the arts. lost faith in it. adam is pre-diabetic. adam prefers being alone. well well. the time has come the reason why i blog endlessly to record my last thoughts before i turn to suicide. it scares me, but it makes me happy. im researching intensely on sex change. but now, been doing on death and suicide. it scares me, but it makes me happy my blog is my only avenue. i wont be surprised. remember the time i tried to jump from the 25storey. that was fun. dont forget the 10th and the 8th storey. maybe this time, i'll fail again. i'll get drunk first then. my laptop's password is Science07 my passwords are usually vernill........ i wanna be 9 years old again. and prayed that i didnt wake up the next day. adam 21st March 1988 - 21st March 2

remember my post on The Motivation oh well, losing appetite and treadmills kinda help. i can fit in again. yay. next, the medical appointment. apparently, i have to make a date with BB Polyclinic regarding my sugar level. have yet to tell my parents the truth. all i said was, "i need to get jabs and stuff, you know, like Hep B and stuff" i told them i'd go next month. i wanna go on my birthday. so in any case i receive more bad news, then it wont be a happy birthday. maybe i might jump. im never happy anyway. i better tell my sis my password so she can blog on my behalf. life is short. i want it shorter. i want a fast way out

i've never liked the bin mohammad part. it should just be adam anyway. im contemplating. which one to go to. vibes international(again) or help with the editing. when you need money, things go your way. i'll let future adam decide. the next best thing, dont you love it when people follow suit indirectly. they follow my swag without them knowing. next bestest thing, my mommeh is the best. lets invest in insurance! see, other malays see that as Haram, or a gamble. what i learnt. We are not encouraged to invest cos its like gambling. sit down and wait for rainfall. wrong. here, if you wanna open a mee rebus stall. you invest money right? and if you dont know how to cook mee rebus, you pay someone else to do it right? there you go. insurance. oh yeah, why you all worry anyway? never pray, smoke, drink alcohol all can. invest cannot. thanks ar malays! and wow. smoking is a sin according to my religion. so yeah. whatever.

it feels better typing my thoughts here. i mean, even if no one reads, i would be the only one reading. but yay! "I nearly died twice. but god want you to have a father," "huh hur," i laughed. "why you laugh? you think you so great?" he stutters and he makes me laugh. 2 weeks ago he said we should have a bonding session. ____________________________________ RULE1: No one is supposed to sleep beyond 10am. (used to be 9am in sec sch days) I know many of my friends would die from that rule. 22th Feb, Fri, i woke up at 11. I woke up thanks to his vulgarities. that lasted for half an hour. goddamnit la, half an hour seh, i wake up already right?! now, deep inside me, i always get jealous when ppl say they wake up at 11 or 1pm. i wanna try that. it sounds fun. maybe when i am 30. tsk tsk ___________________________________ YES, I feel like a better person now. you should see the smile on my face now. though my eyes are puffy... yay me! and apparently, munaji* is

yay. after all the commotion. he's asleep now. well, we all have secrets. just that i hate keepin it now since i graduated. back to normal life. im more stronger. its like gaining another level in a game. haha

shut up and go to sleep lah. im like 20 already. i know what i am doing. its past midnight fool

i miss the times when i came home late and see my dad with a knife getting ready to attack me i miss the times when my mom suffers and my dad steps her head while shes lying on the floor i miss the times when my dad pulls my private in order to make me feel pain during the fasting month i miss it when my dad threatens to kill us all i miss the times i pushed my dad to the floor and fought with him cos he was gonna stab me i miss the times when i was called names that aint fit for humans i miss the time he peed on me while i was still a naked 5 year old i miss it when he slaps me full force, leaving a handprint i miss the times he whips me with his belt i miss getting kicked in the head i miss shouting vulgarities out my window and getting the neighbours involved i miss attempting to call the police i miss getting hit by bamboo poles i miss getting hit by the flower vase i miss watching my mom bleed, my sister cry, and him grabbing my throat and make me beg and gasp for air i miss getti

18,CHIKU ROAD(off Still Road), VIBES INTERNATIONAL "you free tomorrow?" -kadok i couldnt remember his real name. i just replied yes. figures out that, that was my biggest turning point. he wanted me to accompany for an interview as he claimed cos he has to go ns soon. so he take first half, i carry on with the rest of the odyssey. (i only remembered Kadok's real name afterwards. Hamzah) but what i didnt know was that it wasnt an interview. it was a job training. similar to that of what i did at Mickey Mouse Clubhouse from Disney HK. but dang. under Vibes International. They been around for 8 years and have worked with many bigwigs. I like ambitious Malay. The rest are lazy. Sorry. de-railed. Meet MOE Oh, my boss is gay. I'm totally fine with that. I aint a homophobe remember? His name is MY MOE. His boyfriend's name is Frank. Frank seems to be a Pinoy. Moe drags. Moe is the girl who makes the Maggi. wow. But, looking at this couple/partnership, it made me confused

enticed to be one of them? i wasnt even thinking of the teletubbies. but 'lil miss you know who' brought it up. and me being a wiki addict, went to wiki immediately. and seems like this year is their 10th anniversary. it first appeared in 1998 remember? 10 years old. that means the teletubbies are in Primary 4. so cute the link this tubby logo reminds me of a pokeball! and yeah, we agreed that mufujifi sounds like a tubby name! on a side note, prior to that, i was researching on sex change. so yes! kinda fun... what your tubbie, tubby?

no offense shawn, but i wanna write on this. shawn asked whether i wanted to go for a cruise. then suddenly he flipped the script and said sorry. "Shawnrick said: i actually wanted to ask if u were interested in goin to the cruise..but then i remembered abt your condition" im not even full diabetic. Not type 1 diabetic and not type 2 diabetic mind you. and yes, fyi, theres no cure to diabetes mellitus. but theres control. like boy oh boy, am i offended.

THE LETTER my condition worries me. i wont die. but its funny. there were like 2 statements about me one of them was "impaired fasting glycemia" basically, that means my body is darn stupid and dont know how much sugar to break or make. so therefore homeostasis is not stable in my body. (homeostasis is just the process of making sugar and water level in the body to be in a state of equilibrium) biology helps... and hyperlipidemic, the result just says i am slightly lipemic. basically, i have a slow metabolism rate. your body's so dumb that it dont know how to break down food and fats and sugar. like thanks ar.... ______________________________ _ THE FATHER so my dad dropped by for lunch. he asked me, "so whats that Government letter yesterday?" "erm, nothing. its just the results of my blood test. remember the NS thing, after they suck my blood? yeah" (my exact same words) "mmm" (as a form of mutual understanding) he presumed im healthy. ___

"if i take the wrong bus. if i alight at the wrong stop. if i cant figure out how to detour. if i am reverting back to my old ways. if i look different. if i sing to a different tune. if i dont talk the same issues no more. " then you should know. something is really wrong. call it mental breakdown. i duno. all that happened today so yeah. i cant help it. to make things worst. i finally got the results of my diabetes test. im farquened pissed. i dont wanna be alive if i had a choice. yes, something is wrong. and i aint got nothing to say. i may act like that its nothing serious, but within me, i know. its wrong. its getting depressing for me. crying and letting it out dont seem to save the day. i dont wanna let my parents know about this whole issue. or else, i'll be the third one known to have this genetic disorder in my family. _________________________________ hmm, friends are cool with it. they make me feel better about this whole situation. thanks dhana, thanks mufuj

im not surprised that i plucked 16 white hair today. they keep coming. thanks ah diabetes u'll be surprised if you see my results. its like getting aids like that. hmmm hey god, break it to me gently can? im kinda tired being worried. its just me. u should know. you made me. ur tests are kinda stressful. fine, i'll start praying again. ___________________________ see, its funny, back when no one read my posts. i could just post anything. now, i have to consider not to offend anyone. self discipline on my part i suppose.

"dhana, lets gain our confidence back mr producer. we'll make it someday" I never really had brothers nor sisters and I always treated my friends as my own coz' they gave me a family that I never had. After reading Adam's blog I cried. I cried coz I felt for him. I felt his mix emotions. So I thought to put it out all here. Listen dear brother, the talents you've got are so amazing. I've envied those talents and I've wished many times if I could be like you. And I'm old enough to tell you bro that you got nothing to worry coz' these true talents you've got is an unmatchable, unique combination and it will simply bring you to better heights one day. I've heard about your past. But I know you deserve a better future. You deserve to have all that you desire in your life and have an accomplished happy life with a promisng career and a loved life. You are freaking straight and you music speaks for it! All you need now is patience my bro. Be

these are the reason why i am blogging the pending medical results the pending uni approval how to pay if i get the uni approved how to earn money to pay investment how to be straight back again how to smile once again i am just stressed. thanks for reading.

i wear a thick layer of mask. i have never told you all the actual truth. a quick summary... lionel, u need to relax, u need to focus, ur a good dude. u have a nice nose. trust me. shamer, u got a pilot license, u fly solo, ur gonna earn 5 digits a month, i envy you my friend naz, the ladies man. ur getting more buffed. i evied you and still will. dhana, lets gain our confidence back mr producer. we'll make it someday mike, you're a star. hasif, life is cruel but is fun. lets make our own entertainment fun. deane, we can make it through with our lives. we'll need more money though, thanks for the nightly msns. lina, you're a nice person. yes you are. quirky in a good way. haha... have fun at cambodia garf, i was always evil to you, im sorry. but you're a unique teddy. really sensitive. but you're a patient editor. i like your style ghaz, i still remember the blowjob coupon. tempting. you're a nice filmmaker. i'll follow your trail. i understand now why y

yay. we high in the toilet. he's happy. so am i yeah, they served us YuSheng, Sharkfin Soup(its real i tell you), Suckling Pig, TeoChew Chicken, XO noodle and random Thai Prawn. our satisfied looks... we were gettin bored and high at the AIA celebration thingy. so yeah. insurance agening sounds fun. but its like...hard. and non halal food taste funny. no one touched the chardonay at our table though. should have drank it home. yea right.

shut up adam ______________________________________ i saw Ujwal today. so ujwal reminded me of nora (my sec sch friend) back then at the bus stop, nora dragged me to a corner and asked me a very direct question "whats wrong with you adam? you got split personality? have you seen a psychiatrist?" and i cried in front of her. and then stopped. and cried again. and stopped. sure. "seriously adam, you gotta stop it. you're hurting people around you. stop it" 2003 _______________________________________ then i saw my other Hillgrovian friends today. reminded me of the outsourced counsellor. "i have clients who dress up outside school. they look beautiful. what im tryna say is that you can put make up and dress up. but not in school ok?" yeah right. that didnt stop me fool. and on my next visit. "so adam, how are you? are you still wearing make up and dressing up?" "erm im fine now. i am a guy, i have a girlfriend" "thats good to hea

lets dig deep. remember how your conscience wrote your Reflection Journal to Kenneth Cheong. you got A cos of that you lucky bastard. now, the conscience is here to wake you up. adam. wake up. your life has no value yet. remember that. you're not shannon who earned $10,833.54 last month what are your plans fool? so what? huh? sure? bloody hell, how can someone have BUS DRIVER as a backup 40 year old plan? shannon is retiring at 40 mind you. your incompetent imbecile. media was the wrong choice. i repeat. MEDIA IS THE WRONG CHOICE wakey wakey. and now you're questioning your sexuality? man you got issues deep muziq ___________________________________________ hey conscience, stop comparing. you're just adding to that stress you bastard. so what. i got nothing left to say. just let me carry on with my media fantasies. even this blog is part of old new media. just be happy will you. you think you're a good song writer? oh please deep muziq, i came up with better half assed

the title summarised my whereabouts. finally. i am farqueing pissed. been waiting for this day to come. hey, im human too you pinkeyed gigolo imbecile. suddenly, i reverted to my old ways. I hate latecomers. if you're late and you apologise.... and all i say is "It's OK" thats it, you're gettin it from me... cos usually within the waiting time. Imma be cussing and travelling in the bus and make you wait when you reach. next, if you wanna offend me, do it graciously. next thing you know, i'll be stringing a chain of vulgarities at ya and you wont even know what hit you. third, i am bi. so don't cross that line or i'll punch you. i'll cover this one next time. and oh. today at tampines, i declared myself to be 25, completed NS and a Jew. so yeah. different story tml groan and moan

so here's a look at my "3min show off clip" on why i should be in Bachelor of Fine Arts, NTU. like whatever la NTU. 15mins to film 2hours to edit 1hour to upload here. dang

wow. adam speaks well on camera. yay! so, my episode was up today. so yeah. i'll just put the links here if any one of you are interested to watch. Channel Newsasia, I,Journalist (Ticket to Joyride) part 1 part 2 part 3

im fine with gays. they're human too. being bi is no harm as well. seriously.

i am in the midst of my "arrogant snobbish 400 words essay" on why i should be in BFA. after all this hustle, i have one fear. what if i can't get in? aww mayne. if all's smooth, then i might be heading to NTU tml to submit the package. if all's smooth with some nuts along the way, then Thursday it is then. (note from the future adam*w.e.f. from now, its been fixed to Thursday.) hmm, thanks adam for the update. so yeah. I missed my episode on Channel Newsasia just now. there's re-runs i know..but, i dont watch TV arrrgh

here is how you can start hating applications Groan at the mention of the word. Freak out at the point of hearing that word. Apply for NTU Get paranoid while filling in the forms Get a friend to get paranoid with you while filling in the forms Make sure it interrupts your lifestyle Watch your juniors and seniors enjoy life while you're filling in the forms Moan Groan And repeat steps 1,2,3

i was hoping to make this one special. but, yesterday didnt help. i got busy this week, uni application seems to have devour my lifestyle. i compiled my portfolio. apparently, i dont have copies of my newer better works. dang that. i have yet to write the 'arrogantly snobbish 400 words essay' on why i should be in BFA. found out that BFA is bachelor of fine arts sure finally completed my "3min" show off video. sheesh. so yes. I betrayed my fitness. Lack of gym due to editing. dang. took a mug of dhana for his scholarship application. i think i'll ask from Mendaki again. that's D-fault. and this how a default convict should look like. (right click, save target as) to download template. hahah...im not taking credit for that. its hasif's idea. so post 300 aint that special

to people with no feelings, shut up. yeah, waterworks sprung a leak again. oh yes, cry and cry. 2.17am. sai said never to blog after 2, cos u'll get emo. sure. cry, yay, i cry easily, i take things seriously.

fine. there is no denying it now. alskdjlasjdlkjasjdasjdlaksjdljasldjalsjdlasjdlkasd happy? but no worries, im not sadasdasdasdkjhasdasd that im close to. give me those gentler ones. happy? do i freak you out now? and yes, im freaky. its natural, you cant make me like asses. i hate them, hur hur, so dont try. and yes, even after all this years, i miss her. i still enjoy giving surprises like in the old days. dont care what no one else says. happy? i was happy-err then. believe that.

back to blog. it was 945am, i stepped out of my house. boarded 106 to meet mufujifi at Clementi. an old man sat next to me in the bus. he looked happy. wait, wrong. he had that kind of look that makes you melt and go awwww.... so when i was about to alight from the bus, he asked me "are you alighting?" he then made way for me. nice senior. he must have made many ladies happy in his younger days. so yeah, mufujifi was excited. no no, we both were quite paranoid. eager maybe. our future depended on today. University. as envisioned in my head, the place is big. so losing our bearings was quite normal. it would be more nerve wreckin if we were there alone though today was like the first time, where i really talked to mufujifi face to face i guess. so yeah. she dons some nice perfume i guess, on normal days i only can smell the grey jacket. haha. it was cool. and she did a good deed at Burger King. to summarise, she had this 'free upsize' coupon. next to her, was this mala