one more thing thats left unsaid, cos i never did dare say

i wear a thick layer of mask.
i have never told you all the actual truth.
a quick summary...



lionel, u need to relax, u need to focus, ur a good dude. u have a nice nose. trust me.

shamer, u got a pilot license, u fly solo, ur gonna earn 5 digits a month, i envy you my friend

naz, the ladies man. ur getting more buffed. i evied you and still will.

dhana, lets gain our confidence back mr producer. we'll make it someday

mike, you're a star.

hasif, life is cruel but is fun. lets make our own entertainment fun.

deane, we can make it through with our lives. we'll need more money though, thanks for the nightly msns.

lina, you're a nice person. yes you are. quirky in a good way. haha... have fun at cambodia

garf, i was always evil to you, im sorry. but you're a unique teddy. really sensitive. but you're a patient editor. i like your style

ghaz, i still remember the blowjob coupon. tempting. you're a nice filmmaker. i'll follow your trail. i understand now why you are who you are. cheers.

natz, i've once thought you were hot, now you're cool! the editor in the making. its in your blood. and i like mirzan! your sense of fashion was cool. love it

mufujifi, you're like the quiet gamer who became a friend at the end. cheers. lets play more games!! i swear, you're like the coolest gamer i've known. and i never realised that your perfume smells good. i swear i like you.

sai, you're like the coolest homophobe. lets sing out loud that we despise gays. you scratch good...scholars coming. you'll get her soon enough

shawn, you just love babes dont you...

shannon, i will never punch shag. i was never pissed at him. and just spend your money wisely

sharime, u are a talented indian, no denying. lets make more hits. love the sounds

shaggy, i like guys and girls. i was never angry at you. haha. cheers, and your mom is cool. and i really hope you see that i was never pissed at ya. no bull

jan, i turned bi halfway. sorry for the mistreatment. we were never together anyway. but you made me happy

jessica, you're like the coolest ex colleague ever. yes you are. always making cards, gift and sending cool smses

zira, you're a nice friend. even though we aint see each other no more. you're still nice. hah. and you were like my first. i'll never forget those days.

atikah, i owe you a big SORRY. hugs!

mimi, i am your constant reader. i'll be there for more surprises. Surprise!

mommeh and father, i failed you. i am sorry. im not the son you wanted me to be. i may not be straight, nor religious. i am sorry. you wont read this but let me vent it out. i betrayed your trust. for you hurt me when i was younger. im sorry but i have no regrets.


i dunno why i typed all those. but i guess its cos i've never dared say it face to face.
so this is the avenue.

so yeah,
syilah is a guy. and yes, i wish you all the best.
you all need to see it.

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