waitin' for the phone to ring. but then again

i am so waiting for my birthday.
i feel the lack of attention. i need a great day where i'm selfishly remembered.
but then again.
its a day where i'd do nothing.

i am so waiting for January 12
i cant wait to start taking my Class 4 license.
but i'll start with the landrovers and the Fords.
the crème de la crème would be driving the 5-tonners.
but then again.
i'll have to clock 7000km and serve 22 months to convert to civilian class3/4

i am so waiting for me to go up another rank.
LCP Adam would sound nice, CPL Adam maybe.
or even better, right after this transport leader course,
3SG Adam. only then can i enter the Chariot bistro and enjoy the pool table.
but then again.
i'd have to pass my IPPT to get 3rd Sergeant Rank and pay.


i am so lost.
i was hoping to sit at the vivo roof garden and puff away.
but with the no smoking rule taking effect,
where do we smokers go.
but then again, its been a week i havent had a puff.
weekends are always puff days.
but then again.
i am trying to kick the habit. its not an addiction, its just a bad habit

adam should stop daydreaming.
i keep daydreaming that i'd find a black suitcase filled with money.
or that i invested money in the stock market and made a pile.
goddamn adam, reality check.
but then again
without daydreaming, adam is just plain boring and lack creativity

and when i sleep at night,
adam should start dreaming about somebody else.
the past week, i've been having the same dream. the same person.
and i'd wake up with the same smile.
its been years now. something should change.
but then again.
i kinda like it.