his million complaints

i am so just gonna embed NSYNC videos till im satisfied... here's nsync live in japan...

here's the 04/08-09 batch of the transport supervisors. what was originally 25, then left with 15. this is to the night that we will(won't) remember... (left to right; top : pte graham, pte jason, pte shahul, cpl tay, ssg eng, 1sg fazule, pte ivan, pte shafarudin left to right; bottom : pte johan, pte shepherdson, pte fithrin, pte deep muziq, pte arafat) and im still hangin' in camp with them though we went thru' the graduation ceremony already... we were happy... were

the first thing in the morning when i reached camp... "eh, your video retarded siah..." "...make more, make more" thats when i decided... yay! make more.. so i went home and asked my sis, hammy-d. "what should episode 28 be about?"

i can't get enough... dont blame me when i get lonesome, and when a friend needs me to help write a song. i turn to them. feels different watchin it now cos im older, cos im halfway to 42 and cos im halfway readin through Lance Bass's Autobiography Out Of Sync. like thanks ah Timberlake. you spoilt everything. theres something about boys who sing. i need to find a harmony group to love soon before i go beserk... where's all the melodic bass, baritone and tenor?? why? why? why? haha, i feel my choir/ a cappella instincts kickin' in... _____ and i'm doin nothin for the next 3 weeks. course have yet to start... great!

i didnt expect things to go this way when they mentioned to me "where's episode 25?" i knew i needed to run and hide my head in the ground. and when i saw a friend spasmed his head like how i did with my sis i knew that this wasnt how i planned it. grrrr.... and for them to watch my episodes in camp in the office behind my back is a tad too much for me to take. like c'mon, i know my blog is open and random but but, to have it mentioned in front of the writer would be awkward. plus thanks to those who thought it was awesome anyway. ______________ "i am the strongest guy around. some say i look big. everybody hates me. i am the worst trainee, who am i?" fithrin was playin the WHO AM I? riddles. (and he was referrin to himself there). we were bored anyway. he did one whole cycle. it was easy to guess who was who. he described everyone in a simple yet specific manner. it was filled with great laughs of course. and then, they realized they'd forgotten about m...

well erm, this is the follow up to episode 26. a more serious topic and a more serious deep muziq. and no, there's no script _____ mom just cut my hair today. and it was a painful experience. i accidentally shouted something unpleasant for both of us to hear. and because of the freak hair malfunction, the next episode might take some time. (:

so its great that u didnt end up in the hospital. but to hear the problems that follows is really disturbing. cos i feel like i cant help solve it. wish i could though. and nothin is more real than a family problem. really. especially when it involves loads of money, a bitch and a divorce. and add a lil black magic to it? alongside your own stalker who calls your home phone, your classmates and your sister. not forgettin your health. now i feel i really cant help much but... i think u need a hug, Javachip from starbucks, and relax with me tomorrow at vivo with deane. but lemme guess, i'll only know bout u in October ey?

for those who don't enjoy readin'... (: i did it. after watchin' lots of 'em on youtube and on 2 of my friends blog. i followed suit. the first time that the thought of doin' it came to mind was in 2006. but hello hello, mr procrastinate. its 2009 already. and and, this is one of my many, episode 26 already...

introducin' hammy-d and this was what i was up to with my sis yesterday night. and yes. its only half her face cos she didnt want her full face in the frame anyway... :)

its been a while since you've been out of the hospital. so to hear that you might be warded in again is kind of unpleasant. whats more unpleasantly shocking was when you told me you collapsed upon reachin home from school. and i hope you're feelin' better now. they say sleep cures all illness. well, thats what i claim. hmm, do get better ok miss anonymous fairylife? or should i say, zira. ________________________________ in other news, deep muziq has completed his episode 26. with thanks to Maths and partial thanks to Science as well. well, yeah, keep watchin' this space. "how come you don't look anything like me?" i asked hammy-d "its good that i dont look like you" she replied "how come my head is oval and yours is circle?" i asked "dunno" "how come your eyes are bigger than mine" "ooh, they are. no wonder bapak say my eyes are big" and thats how random our chat can be. dont you just love sibling love?

erm, frying takes longer.

adam should just shut up

let's see, it's been close to a month that i had a proper rice meal. yayness. with that, the weighin' scale has been really nice to me. now thats a good thing. and i foresee that this week long vacation is reaping in positive effects. but the bad thing, i cant seem to be able to run around in camp much. lets see, within just 34 hours (less than 2 days) i slept for 22 hours. on average, its a 11 hour sleep night. feeling lethargic really bugs me. but no worries to that. i was thinking of coffee as a short simple solution, but i havent had that for almost 3 months (and starbucks java chip not included) im speakin of strong coffee that gives me the added boost to my glucose level. similar speaking to that of the effects of COKE has on me. but yada yada, i think the thing im running on now would be Milo and Maggi. if i keep this up, i'll back to normal. plus i owe myself some effective workout that i'd been procrastinatin' for a while now. ____________ back to topic...

The Big Bang Theory season 2 episode 14 1511hours ___________________ i still love finding out words that come out of my mouth as wrongly pronounced. and people still couldnt tell. for they themselves have no idea to the right pronounciation. usually caused by the same mistake as their superiors. and the vicious cycle follows. in the army, there's 2 words that bothered me. the beret (burr-rray) (in camp, they call it bear-rehh) and thats not how you wear a beret. and and, did you know that the beret and the epaulette is an example of a piece of female fashion adapted from male military uniform. but yah, i should have known. and the epaullete.(ap-ple-let) (in camp, they call it ee-paul-lerd) there. i finally let go of that. now im finally feeling much better.

The Dream - "Love vs Money Part 2" 1300hours _________________________________ we as human undoubtedly hate opinions. feedbacks or comments as you would call it may either pleasantly be looked on or rejected by the nature of oneself. the standard procedure would be to shun the negative and graciously accept the postitive. but what if its an opinion of choice? my point is this actually, ever had friends who'd recommend you a nice song? "have you listened to Ne-Yo's Because of You?" "i like song number 10" there was this clear recollection i have in the year 2001. a friend passed me her 'N Sync album to listen to. ok im biased, i love 'N Sync i made a big mistake by continuing my sentence after my "Thank You..." it actually trailed off to "...which song do you think is nice?" i really didnt wanna know. i prefer unveiling the gem myself and not let that kinda rhetorical question get to me. so while i listened to track numb...

J.Holiday - "It's Yours" 1131hours ____________________ my blueberry nights. something i'd been wantin to watch in a while now. a 2 year old flick by Wong Kar Wai, based on a Chinese short film. see, i wasnt the type who would depart with my dough and catch a flick. i'd rather let it come to me by chance and then i'd watch it. but the only flaw in that would be the backlot of movies left unwatched. and so, now i find myself watchin in the theatre more often than not. and and, the other day, there was a mention in RP's magazine about 'Uncleboy' being screened at Substation on March 2. thanks jan and shag for makin' that possible. wow, people watched our docudrama. and and, there's another flick i'd been meanin to catch. because i don't think i have time to read the novel itself by Cecilia Ahern, i figured i might as well just dive in to the adaptation. i'd wanted to buy the VCD but erm, i ended up in Coffee Bean instead with a Bl...

confessions of a 21 i usually dont talk back to my parents. i'd just stand to cry while they get to me physically and mentally. but sometimes, theres a limit aint it? "you think you're what? Hitler? my point is not that i want my money. you're just pinpointin' the minor details. im here to show you the result of how you brought me up" i finally voiced out "kau jangan sombong adam, kalau bapak tak didik kau macam gini, kau ingat kau boleh jadi macam ni, poly? Kau nak jadi macam Fahmi? Aidil? kau tengok sendiri kau punya keturunan." mom replied (don't be arrogant adam. if your dad hadn't raised you that way, do you think you'd be who you are? you wanna be like insert scumbag cousin names. just look at your roots) "thats your keturunan . after 21 years, you'd think i'd just shut up? i have my opinions and feelings. of course i'd react" i retaliated "kau ingat kau dah besar? kau tetap anak apa." dad shot ba...

a warm sunday night. with much excitement in the morning. excitement, though normal to bicker with the parents the old man wanted me out. gladly i would. but of course, i requested for my account. which would be hard to do for i do have loads of dough that i dont know of. which is why its hard to have a joint account with your mommy. and one that you dont have transparent access to. but yada yada yada... things settled down. and no i aint spillin it here. _______ but but, all alone in this hot stuffy room. someone was there. tryna reach out to me. the medium? MSN her location? on the bus now, i have never really done that, though i do have a mobile usb connection too. but she. she did. and she done it and did it. and im like... awwww ok you, you win. you outdid me. :)

"so in the old days guys went into abandoned buildings when they were upset just cuz the girls didnt like them???" and yes, i laughed at that comment. technically not a real laugh. a laugh that i practically envisioned in my head. so its was like a LOL in my HEAD. a budget video i would say. standard for a startup video. but erm, whats with the corny hand gestures. and mmm, Drew Lachey was mmm.

lemme see, the year was probably around 1999. adam was like only an eleven year old in keming primary. yet, this was one of the few songs that stuck with him from the start... up till now. something about white boys crooning on the beach about a bitch. anyone have any recollection of Code Red? no? well i was a fan of Lee Missen, and we shared the same March 21 birthday. mmhmm... Lee's the one who start off the song. mmm and the year now is probably about 2009. adam is like a 21 year old boy. and finally investin and doin something for music. something about this and that. we'll see how it goes.

to be loved by someone is one thing to love someone is lucky to hear 'i love you' is one thing but being able to say 'i love you' to someone is lucky well, i have been a lucky boy.

confessions... i 'love' maggi for specific reasons. its easy to cook, its convenient and i can even cook it in camp. and i have it for all my meals. brunch and dinner. well, cos its easier to puke it out after the meal.

"now there are reasons, that im lookin forward to October." well, she was just outside my window last night. and i have to admit, it was that close. to think that she'd walked all the way from the pool to my place to hers. just to feel near me. must be insane but i know i'd do the same thing too! and with all the crazy lil things that she do, i am still amazed by her action. :) "if that already made u excited, i wonder what would happen if you were to see me.. i think you'd explode" dm... "maybe i'll drop dead" weeeeeeeeeeeee.....

i'm really lookin at my choices right now. to book in tonight or book in tomorrow morning. both has its pros and cons. hmm... "sounds like you have plans after ORD..." "you should go get a degree first, trust me, you'd need it" "are you serious?" "wow. i dont even have plans after ORD" words of the day, whenever we think of what we're gonna do when we leave the service. i have my plans, but whether it will become a reality is another thing. but knowing me good enough, theres a high likely chance that things might just go the way i planned.

Kwizyne's mixtape click to download here's my muziq brother's Mixtape. Acquired Taste Mixtape Prototype. packed with 19 songs plus 2 Bonus tracks inclusive of I RMB U (featurin' deep muziq) songs that got me listenin' are Stoic Boy Pirat-ed-cy Old Changi Hospital Yusof Bin Ishak (Dead Presidents) its on heavy rotation in my iPod, so check it.

in all, 4kg lost within this month. no big deal cos i was gainin' after BMT. but erm, its funny cos i have this weird habit. after eatin, it would be an auto reaction for me to head on to the gents. and then do what people wont do. after that i'd pop my pills. and i havent had rice at all, yay me. except for last night, but i puked it all out. so it should be fine. and checking my weight every 3 hour is good thing

well my sis is sitting behind me playing FEAR and then SIMS2 while im here surfin the net. oh no! i havent been to ILUMA yet. i've been to Tampines 1, which is still a fucked up place if u asked me. i rather they leave it be like its old former self. DEAD. well i was flashin my middle finger often then due to many humanly obstacles. grrr but but, i really wanted to head on down to ILUMA. its was opened on 28th march and i have yet to set foot there... hmm, lemme tell u where's my 'next place i wanna be when its done'. Pinnacle @ Duxton. i wanna sit on the 50th storey and shout out loud to the world. weeee... maybe fairylife would wanna go there with me to when its done. should be after October by then! weeeeeeeeee!

as u clearly know it. i'd rather spend my days with u then to go back to my camp. but i will be back... i'll be waiting and waiting. 25 remember?

i really havent had enough sleep. graduation is big on my mind. but not as big as the one who kept me on the phone for 5h38mins yesterday night. and yes. im really thrilled to know that i wont have to stay for the week ahead. mmmm... im really at a loss for words. she makes me *melt* weeee! hey miss, ur missed!

we earned our berets through the tough outfield. but normal drivers just head down to the emart and purchase them with ease. how uncool is that? and i found one green packet in my field pack so. yums! im the only human who appreciates the green packets. bless me.

and im not a pro purple straw. i've stated many times, i'm pro green straw! starbucks it is. with thanks to fairylife,ahem, i had Chocolate Cream Chip with Whipped Cream. now whats wrong with that picture? its all dairy and full of lactose. something i cant digest. bleah. and then i finished the cup real quick and had wanted to puke in the bus. ultra bloated. Hohoh!

and i had to buy a dark coloured long sleeve shirt with tie! just for this upcoming graduation dining in ceremony. mmhmmm

a warehouse turned soccer cage. and 180 for 2 hours is pricey. but still. it was fun, to tear my old rugby boots. staff eng kicked the ball directly to my eye then. and it was vibrating. as if beggin to pop out of the socket.

Your message history for fairylife stories; a hero lies in you. has reached the maximum size allowed. You can either delete older messages or save them to another location." and this was the second time it appeared this month. and i usually dont really declare how i feel... but erm. yes of course i heart u! _____________________________ I heart you too, friend. You won't understand now. Time will tell.. Forgive me for my mistakes, my flaws. God, take care of this boy especially his health and safety. Bring him up when he's down. Soften his heart. Say Hi if we meet in the streets in future. Insya-allah. My first kiss boy. Remember, 25? (: Sincerely, Nadzirah Isa/urfairylife 1/10/09 _______________________________ Have a safe trip to Thailand okay, Adam! Will pray for your safety. Promise me to be back in one piece, can? :) You, my SMB 54 E. Sincerely, Nadzirah Isa/ur fairylife 10/11/09 _________________________________ Ya Allah, lindungi Adam ...

an agreement made between me and pte adam. never ever bring your headphones to outfield. the last time i brought the yellow headphone to Tekong, the cable got loose. and only one side could be used. and it was no fun listenin to muziq that way. so the next day which was a saturday, i went to get Red. to match Black the iPod. mmmmm.... i wonder what the next colour would be....

yayness. this next week marks the very last week of my Transport Supervisor course. graduation dinin' in this very thursday. i was smart enough to book my guard duty slot on that day. so this means, guard duty cancelled! but in all, it was a whole lotta fun being a Trainee. so, i guess, this upcomin week, i gotta clear my cupboard then. im comin' home. and then movin on to 5tonner drivin course and then Maintenance training. i guess the only perk there is to that would be the 9 to 5 work hours!

goodie. Jose de Castro, my psuedo Papa in RP, gave me a box of Phillipines cigars in around 2006. (t'was Panetelas, 100% Tobacco, since 1881) i, as a non-smoker then, gave away the cigars to a bunch of smokers. but i intentionally left a stick in the box, citing reasons that should i be a smoker someday, i shall try what Jose gave me. another reason was that i wanted to keep that as a memory of what Jose got me as a souvenir from the Philly, apart from their Preserved Mangoes. yum. over the years, i honestly deleted the memory of me leavin' the box of cigar in my bed drawer. speakin' of my bed drawer, thats where my parents found out about the wooden penis shaped ashtray that GY gave me as a birthday gift. so, just moments ago, i was tryna rummage through that drawer for a nice audio find. many old CDs there. and then i found it. the box with the solo cigar. hmmm so maybe tomorrow.... in between Soccer at the Cage... and Seoul Garden. puff puff...!

i sit here and wonder who you really are but sometimes, i realised i dont even care. (:

a remote controlled Dennis Lance a cardboard model of the Scania K230UB sometimes i wonder, where do they got all the time to do such stuff... tsk tsk but i must say, it sure looks nice!

he looked like he emerged from the sewers after leavin' westlife and his wife and daughters. and i never did like the album. the cover was a complete turnoff. i think Sony BMG hated it too and they ended his contract. and now under a new label, i figured he's tryna make amends. his back with his old Westlifer look. but i dont appreciate rock anyway. so here's bryan mcfadden.

got it for $6.95. deane also got a copy for himself. and its still in my drawer next to Black Hawk Down. i have yet to watch both of it. hmm. i like Stephen King but have yet to read the The Green Mile. so, watchin The Green Mile would be good enough anyway.

i watched on it the telly for the first time. i remembered wantin' to watch it in the nineties on channel 5. but my dad banned me from watching cos i had to focus on my studies. bahh. well, i finally did cos it was on the Sunday afternoon matinee slot on channel 5. hmm, its a 13 year old movie already. gosh. how laggin' was i? and i so remember their hit song for obvious reasons. havin performin' it in Hilly and RP. but yeah. good times.

Backstory it all started out with just a normal nights out on a thursday. a nights out is where we soldiers get to book out of camp and enjoy a nice meal or go home or something. we just came back from the jungle that morning. in fact, it was my first proper nights out. any other day, i would be lying prostrate on my bed. reading a book, listening to my ipod, playin my psp, puff, drinkin mushroom soup and whatsoever. and so we had our meal and Colonel Sander's and then rented couple of movies to watch. tang paid for it anyway. so then i suggested that we cabbed back since it'll only set us back a minimum of $6.40. so we took 2 cabs considering that there were many of us. i sat next to the cabbie and he asked me "u want me to follow the car infront?" "yes please, they're heading the same way anyway" so at 80km, we were behind them and then suddenly they zoomed away. ok so now thats the backstory. Story1 so we reached our building, we bumped into Nazreen, ...

after 2 weeks being jungle-lized. im gonna take the bus round this little island while reading "Dead Until Dark" while listening to my iPod and then have a few puffs while staring at the beautiful people. and then next week, a lil mini outfield. liftin the landrover via helilift. so yes. and then guard duty thats pending to be cancelled on the day before Good Friday. prolly a soccer match at the Cage at Kallang with the other privates before piggin' out at seoul garden then. mmmm.... no more limpin' today. jus a lil. and i earned my dark blue beret. so yes. life is good. for this 5 minutes only.

here's a nice Japanese short clip. a parody of Flashman as well... but yeah. i had fun watchin it. maybe you wont.

The Dream Rockin' That Thang its cute to see him tryna dance and tryna make a straight face at the same time. but yeah. what's on heavy rotation in my iPod? the dream's sophomore album, Love Vs Money. he claims that this second album of his is just like his first album (Love Hate) on crack. who's he? the one who wrote and produced Rihanna's Umbrella J.Holiday's Bed Usher's Movin' Mountain The Dream Feat Mariah Carey - My Love mmhmm

prior to this week, i was offshore this week, i was in Lim Chu Kang and then near Khatib Bongsu, better known as Yishun Ave 7. "by right, you guys need 3 days full body maintanence," it was all too rushed. and on the first night, we were busy doin' plannin' that we all didnt get sleep, at all. here's the injuries i suffered. fell off the 5 tonner in the dark at 0345hours - injured left shin and left kneecap. it was hard to stand on my left leg then. fell during ambush drill - scraped my palm, scraped and bruised left kneecap and injurin' right kneecap. injured while proning durin' ambush - both shinbone injured while landin on a big root injured while runnin' thru uphill woods - impact on both knees all that resultin in my current limp. was unwalkable. then walkable. i think today, im runnable. cos i could play soccer and even score against the transport supervisor's rival, the supply supervisors.

241104 - Hillgrove Secondary's 1st batch of graduands there could possibly be 2 reasons and 2 points to talk about as to why this picture is up. Reason first, cos its nice to uncover newly uploaded pics of the 'what used to be' me. and yes, thanx azza. Reason second, cos i didnt know i smiled. but erm, thats the best pic of me smiling proper i could find. Point now, lemme see. azza's supposedly gonna organise a gatherin' real soon by mid year. all the rest i suppose are uber eager to meet up, unlike me and deane. but comparing me to him, he's more uber eager not to show up. of course, he has his valid reasons and i shall respect that. while i'm still sittin' on fences. look, i didnt even attend their previous gatherin' which was Deepa K's Pink/White birthday party. i planned to attend the chalet in pink but i ended up headin' to RP's dull open house and went to Popeye's instead. so where was i? oh yes. lookin' at the picture up t...