while you were asleep and no ones reading

it's the waking up with the achin' in your heart.
i know feelings come from the brain.
but heartbreak really hurts near the chest area most.
i'd blame that on the adrenaline production i guess.

what's worst is that the moment i woke up, it was 8am.
and it was as dark as the 4am sky.
plus, it was time to book out from duty.
a rather dangerous concoction of gladness and sadness.

a puff is what i need now.
adamant to people's advice to stop.
i guess this is how i escape reality.
escape being judged.

and i blame that one human that gave me hell.
gosh i despise you.
you're despicable.

______

and while she seemed happy-go-lucky.
i was wrong to instantaneously jump to the idea
that i can fully trust her and share my thoughts.
well i thought wrong.

u guess only toys can cheer me up right now.
right?

ditto.

an 11 combo???
hmmm. 2 more mecha for me.
200 bucks more please.