wounds that never healed

she said:
i wanna ask
but nevermind la

i said:
what? dont leave it hanging

she said:i just wanted to know why
i never knew the reason

i said:
oh wow
guess i was the one who left it hanging


i think its cruel. its cruel if someone opens up an 5 year old wound. but its for the good. my decision was abrupt with no rhyme or reason.
she didnt know why i left. 1year relationship that never went sour.
see, but there was a problem
i was only in it to prove myself that im a good boyfriend material.
secondly, i felt i was gay. but that prompted me. wait. i like both.

she said:
WHAT?!?


she said:
but you were my 1st.
why didnt you tell me?


it got more complicated when she called me dear. oh wow. no no no no. fuckk you adam