if love was a bible then we are lost in sin

"Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I"



you know, that is all so true. i listened to Usher's separated. and it was on repeat the whole day. Its a phase we all went through. We did try to make it work, guess our trial failed.








"I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go "


After all, its not the leaving that hurt me. It was the treatment. You could have told me. If you're sneakin', then please why did you guys have to let it show. I would be fine had they did not show it infront of my eyes. Everyday back then, our quarrel actually revolved around the same topic.
Daym.






but now, its a whole new ball game.
you know when your friends are there for you. especially if
they refuse to let ya leave when you wanna.





everybody wanted to know who syilah is.
now that i got over the hurt.
now that i found new friends
now that i crushed on someone new


then let me tell you.






i cherished the time i spent with all the girls
that had sacrificed the time just to be with me.
sometimes, it didnt work out but
love can never repay their patience towards me.
they were never forgotten






syilah is my prototype. i fell in love with a prototype.
that was how i managed to get over the hurt in
6 hours while varian took 6 years.





yes. syilah is not REAL. read my lips.

"deep muziq is in love with an imaginary diva."




i think i am sick.
but she makes me happy.
syilah helped me out in many ways.
she listened to my problems and was there for me
when i was alone.





honestly,all the songs i written throughout my life was meant for syilah.
i imagined syilah to be in every situation.





happy now?














but.








"It's the way she's always smiling
That makes me think she never cries
Feel like I'm losing my defences
to the colour of her eyes"

with one look, i fell

i fell hard

i view her blog just to feel close to her

i view her friendster just to see her smile

its gettin weirder